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About CyanideFishbone

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    It's 4 AM and I can't think of anything funny or amusing
  • Birthday 04/17/2001

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    Male
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    He
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    Anime, Video Games, Cartoons, and music. That's really it. Not saying anime aren't cartoons, because anime are cartoons. Can't stand the people who don't think that.
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    Your basement
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  1. god damn it finally after like seven years of waiting I'm really excited for both. The open world Pokemon games seems really cool and Gen 4 was the gen I grew up with so I've been waiting for these remakes for a long time. Hoping that they'll fix the issue of like the 3 Fire lines that are in the original Diamond/Pearl but I'm picking Chimchar because that was who I picked first and I love my fire starters so I guess it doesn't effect me too too much. Hoping to see some Unova/Galar/Alola/Kalos pokemon in the game but with the Dexit stuff idk if we'll see that. Still happy to have my Gen 4 remakes though.
  2. I'm halfway done with the second season of Close Enough since it came out yesterday and I can't emphasize how much of a treat this show is. I don't wanna get depressing but watching Regular Show all the time is one of the few happy memories I have from my preteen years and it's a pretty great feeling watching Regular Show as a kid and now watching this as an adult (even though I'm only 19 and ofc not facing stuff like marriage or raising a child). A spiritual successor without censors is just what this needed to be and I think it really delivers. 

  3. Just tried the new McDonald's chicken sandwich, literally the most forgettable chicken sandwich ever lmao, Popeyes and Chick Fil A would be ashamed

    1. Wumbo

      Wumbo

      For me, it is the McChicken. The best fast food sandwich.

    2. CyanideFishbone

      CyanideFishbone

      Actual facts McChickens rule and no one can convince me otherwise

  4. "Super Stupid" // Funkadelic
  5. Ted Cruz's dumb facial hair looks like Walter White's in the final episode of Breaking Bad when he returns to New Mexico after taking refuge in super rural New Hampshire

    1. jjsthekid

      jjsthekid

      teddy, have you solved the fnaf lore?

  6. Ehh idk about that one chief. DBS is far, far from perfect but I wouldn't put it on the same level of GT. Super's worst arcs are mostly just boring and uninspired while GT has some serious "what the actual fuck were they thinking?" moments. IMO, Super's biggest problems are some of the uninspired and sometimes confusing (*cough* Goku Black *cough*) arcs and how bad they botched Goku's character and made him just absolutely braindead. At the very least, while Super as a story is super far from perfect, I still find a good portion of it enjoyable (while not as good as DB or pre-Buu DBZ) while GT really only has the Baby Saga going for it. Also the Broly Saga/Dragon Ball Super: Broly is hands down the best thing the franchise has put out since the Cell Saga and no one can change my mind. Still need to reread the Galactic Patrol Prisoner Saga as it's done but I wasn't impressed with the bit of it I read. It had a lot of promise but just kinda killed it iirc.
  7. I don't think Seasons 4/5-7 of That 70's Show aren't as bad as many people make them out to be (not including Season 8, fuck that shit). Yeah a lot of the characters, especially Eric get flanderized hard with the whole bumming around the house thing, but the core of the show to me was always comedy instead of heart, and those seasons for the most part are still funny so they still got my attention and there's a handful of great episodes then (albeit I don't think I'll be revisiting it any time soon with Netflix taking it off and how much of a fucking monster Danny Masterson is but that's besides the point). Also Hyde and Jackie is easily my favorite ongoing plot point/relationship in the show, the two have such fucking good chemistry. They're definitely a drop in quality, but I wouldn't call them bad. Just wish good shows and group efforts wouldn't be tainted by a cast member being a serial rapist who's part of a cult who's lackeys orchestrate the poisonings of the pets of his victims, but again, besides the point, and hopefully I and many others will be able to come back in 5/10 years because that really was one of those comfort shows for me that I could just throw on whenever and not really have to pay attention. Gecko Moria is the single most underrated antagonist in One Piece. I always see people bring him up when bringing up the worst villains in the story (usually Wapol and Foxy; Foxy honestly serves his purpose very well, fuck Wapol), and I can't figure out why. Where Moria excels as a villain is highly dependent on to where he's introduced in the story- just as the Straw Hats are about to make it to the New World, he's a reject of it after his crew was wiped out by Kaido. The idea of a villain creating an undead army after being struck with grief and trauma after watching his old crew all be massacred is a damn neat idea for a villain, and it's done pretty well in my opinion. And from that, he's just completely lost his mojo, he's fat, unmotivated, and has to resort to petty pillaging and crimes with abducting pirates and leaving them out to sea. He's literally a SHADOW of himself (no pun intended; might have on Oda's half given his penchant for stuff like that, hence Doflamingo being a literal puppet master), and something that always stuck out to me was the scene where Luffy meets him for the first time and hurls the classic Luffy "I'm gonna kick your ass!" spiel, and like most of the other villains who are either riled up by it or just sit by relaxed not believing him/what not, Moria just sits back, and laughs nervously, faking a confident persona and doing a bad job at it. I don't think he's one of the series' best, like I don't think he's near Doflamingo, Lucci, Katakuri, Eneru, etc but he's a way better villain than most give him credit for IMO. U2 is so pointlessly overhated. Yeah they kinda became generic studio rock as they went on and what not but even then they're still passable. Also War, The Unforgettable Fire, The Joshua Tree.... all fucking classics.
  8. I lowkey hate how some of Blink-182's songs hit harder as someone who will be 20 in less than 3 months than when I was listening to their music for the first time as a hormonal 13 year old

    1. President Squidward

      President Squidward

      as a san diegan our alt stations have always forced every song to play on the radio every day that I can't stand most of their songs anymore. After Midnight, stay together for the kids and I miss you are the only ones I do like nowadays. Tom Delonge is cool

    2. CyanideFishbone

      CyanideFishbone

      I getcha lol haha. Like my whole dad's side of the family lives there and I definitely catch them a lot on the radio whenever I'm there

  9. I miss answering questions so AMA, I miss y'all
  10. New Years resolutions- Working out more, continuing therapy, improving myself, watching new stuff, eating better, and finally, listening to more hip hop.

  11. Watching Malcolm In The Middle for the first time all the way through right as you finally start finishing Breaking Bad is an absolute trip

  12. It's been a long time coming, and I've went back and forth on whether or not I want to do so, but I think I finally feel ready and safe to say that I'm gonna take a backseat from SBC. Things won't really be changing much since I've been fairly inactive since summer of 2018, and I'll still be on from time to time (I actually check the site fairly regularly, I just feel like I never post at all), and I'll be on the Discord still. Also if any of y'all wanna follow me on some of my more private social media (like Instagram or Snapchat) I'm totally cool with that; just DM me if you're interested (I'll still be checking the site like at least once a week), because I just don't feel particularly comfortable publicly giving out social media like that. 

     

    As much as I love the pre movie episodes my interest in modern Spongebob and it's future is pretty much nonexistent and while things are gonna get grim, I gotta be honest. Since I wanna say around September/October 2018, my mental health has taken a pretty bad decline. A lot of it deals especially with dealing with some things going on in my family in regards to my sister's mental health (which she has made a big improvement in, and also something I've been upfront about making me depressed), my school life, and coming to terms with a lot of stuff in regards to growing up and just adolescence in general. Never really realized how much genuine trauma I have from middle school, which were the worst years of my life, until like over a year ago.

     

    A lot of this reached a head during the lockdown. Actually... literally right before lockdown (December 2019-February 2020) I was doing the best I had done in years, possibly ever. I actually felt confident in myself, was talking to people despite my crippling social anxiety.... and it all kinda went straight to shit slightly before lockdown hit. Not a lot of people know this, but I had a very unfortunate run in with university cops in mid-February, where I was threatened to be kicked out of university and maybe arrested under possession of drug paraphernalia. Not saying where I go to uni to protect my privacy because I don't wanna end up behind bars but I used to smoke weed really late at night on campus in the woods. Not a smart idea, please don't do it guys (not weed, just smoking it on campus). Anyway I also started buying CBD too when I ran out which I would also smoke, and I had a drawstring bag in my dorm (now at home) which basically had everything to let me smoke; two pipes, a grinder, lighter, rolling tray, a nug jug, and a thing of rolling paper. One night I was smoking when I saw a white van pass, carried on my business because I was doing CBD which is legal where I live, until they went back and started asking me, did the traditional questioning, did a pat down because in the eyes of American law enforcement doing any sort of thing resembling drugs automatically makes you a school shooter, and made me remove everything from my drawstring bag. 

    CW: sexual harassment (this paragraph, and next)

    These cops were serious dickheads. When asked about why I used CBD, I said to help anxiety (wasn't lying), and they basically went on to mock me using it, saying how there's "safer outlets"; really the only risk I'm running is to my lungs which is whatever, and it's legal and even if it wasn't, let me make my own decisions. Anyway, after the pat down, after everything was removed from my pockets, they wanted to check for weapons again, and the cop who was frisking me proceeded to... put his hand down the back of my jeans, and basically in other words.... tickle the upper part of my butt over my underwear. One of the cops sexually harassed me; it made me insanely uncomfortable, and this was POST patdown, everything was out of my pockets, the hoodie I was wearing was off and on the hood of their car. After that, they proceeded to make me smash all my pipes against a rock as they delightfully watched, and throw my rolling tray and grinder into a nearby river from a point where I wouldn't be able to reach it ever. It was a really cold night so they let me go as long as I got rid of most of my stuff; I still had my lighter, nug jug (which funnily enough was the only thing I had on me that had weed on the jug but they didn't give a shit because cops suck), and rolling paper- and had to buy everything else again. Didn't have to worry about the pipes because I invested in a bong right when lockdown hit (which was an insanely smart idea, probably the best purchase I've made all year), and bought another grinder this summer and only bought another rolling tray about two/three weeks ago. Anyway I basically went back to my dorm, waited for my roommate to come back, told a lot of my closest friends, and cried my fucking eyes out that night.

    A lot of what I'm feeling just reached a major head during lockdown, a culmination of what I've been feeling a lot of, which a lot of it is really private and I don't really feel comfortable talking to many people at all about. But to add insult to injury, and something I've told no one, I uncovered a pretty traumatic repressed memory from my childhood this summer, involving me being... coincidentally, sexually harassed by a group of teenage boys who would regularly torment me on vacation... I was never raped or molested but I'll just put it at that they basically cornered me on the neighborhood park and forced me to show them... I'll just say what's in my pants because they thought it would be funny. I was about six or seven when it happened, felt disgusting after it happened, and just repressed it for years. It really really took it's toll on me during August and September, and for most of the time at lockdown, I just avoided everyone and everything because I was depressed. Even my own parents who are sweet and supportive as fuck and I feel awful because of it. I was super angsty, grumpy, and just not fun at all to be around. My mental health started to get a bit better after moving back to uni mid-August and getting a bit more independence but I was a shitty friend and son for like all of summer who just really wouldn't want to talk to anyone at all. I feel insanely shitty about it, but I've been getting more social again (albeit I've been way less social then I've normally been for a while now because of depression) and my parents are cool with me, and told me how they loved having me during quarantine before I went back to uni, which was a silver lining because maybe I wasn't as bad as I thought I was. I was mainly just super reclusive and just really quiet around my parents, but I guess I'm usually a pretty quiet guy.

    Anyway a lot of this reached a head in mid-October where I just kind of broke down one day, started experiencing pretty bad bouts of anhedonia, frustration, anger, and what not and that's when I finally put my foot down and decided to seek help because of how tired I am of living like this. And I'm seeing a therapist in December for the first time. And with Biden winning, I'm hoping (but not counting on it) corona will get a little better in the US, things are finally starting to seem bright again. Really admitting I had a problem made me feel so much better, and knowing that I was gonna get help. And even if it doesn't work (which I really don't think it won't work) at least I tried. The future is starting to look somewhat bright for me, thank god. I've contemplated making a more detailed post/video about what's been going on but I feel satisfied with this because a lot of what I'm feeling is pretty private. But I guess the short of it is my social anxiety (I have Asperger's) is insanely bad. Besides like cashiers and people I have to talk to like that I freeze up pretty much whenever I talk to anyone my age, who I feel like I don't relate to most of which at all, but it's especially bad with girls, jesus christ. I freeze up so goddamn bad. And I've asked out a ton of girls in the past and I'm having a harder time talking to girls as I'm getting older which is all sorts of bizarre. And a big reason I'm sad, and I know how stupid and incelish this sounds, is because I'm 19 (20 in April) and I've never kissed a girl, never had a girlfriend, and never want past that. I just feel so left out, and alienated from everyone and I have for pretty much all of high school despite having some friends (some of which I'm admittedly having problems with, but a good share I'm still tight with and are good people). I'm just sick of this shit, and I've been feeling it for goddamn years now. And it needs to change. Because I don't like myself at all and I hate it. Because I know I'm worth it, and I know people love me and think I'm a good guy.

    Two last things; another big reason for my absence and my further absence has just been school. As I've said, I'm at uni and juggling a regular sized class load, and other interests have taken up way more of my free time than going on here- just the way it is, unfortunately. So that's why I've been way more absent especially since starting my freshman year. But I've still made time to come on here, but that's why I haven't been posting a lot; I'm mostly on here to check up with y'all, but I guess that could also do with the fact that I just haven't been very social at all recently.

    Last thing is I'm sorry for how I treated a lot of people here back in 2014-2015. Middle school me was the worst. I was dealing with the aftermath of some pretty awful shit in seventh grade that led to me trying to take my life (I'm here now, and I'm gonna get better now ofc) and I just became an edgy, obnoxious, pretentious little shit because of it and I criticized a lot of music insanely unfairly and was just a fucking asshole to a lot of people... because I was honestly an asshole in real life and I just didn't know any better. I've already done so before, but I especially want to apologize to @Clappy, who honestly got the worst of it in retrospect. A lot of my criticisms, especially regarding Paramore (have actually enjoyed their music for 3 or so years now at this point), were insanely biased and I was just hating on things that were popular and loved because I was a pretentious little shit. I'm so sorry, guys. Unfortunately some of the most active years I've had on here were the years where I just acted the worst. I don't wanna just apologize to Clappy, but everyone who was involved in my awful music criticism and overall douchery. So sorry. I've grown up a lot since those years (and especially in the last two years I've grown up a lot) and I'm far from a perfect person, but goddamn it, I'm trying.

    And that's really that. I fluctuated between making this post a ton and whether I should take a backseat, but I'm gonna to focus on both my mental health and school. Thanks to everyone who's been a great friend, and thanks to everyone who put up with me when I was at my worst. But I need to focus on the real world for a while. Maybe I'll be back soon and I'll feel able to do so, and I hope so. But recently I just haven't been active and besides my occasional visit, I'm just gonna take a backseat. Obviously, if any of y'all wanna stay in contact with me, I'm all arms. I'll still be on Discord and if you wanna know me better personally, feel free to DM me for any of my more personal social media (and you can DM me on Discord too)

    Until then, sayonara, 再见 (actually been learning Chinese since first semester freshman year), adios, what have ya. I'll be back, but I got a lot I need to focus on now.

    Sincerely,

    -Ryan (CyanideFishbone)

  13. 100% this lmao. Feels like it's been forever.
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