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That Excited SpongeKid

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  1. I'm putting a trigger warning for self harm so please be cautious 

     

     

     

    I just did that again and I haven't since I was sixteen. It's so weird how I keep going between feeling like I'm doing really great in life to feeling like a complete and massive failure. Please don't be concerned about me, I'm fine. Just needed to get this off my chest for a moment. 

  2. I don't mean to double post, but I've noticed that everytime I post here its negative, so I actually have something positive. Ever since I graduated high school I had become very depressed and isolated. In October of 2023, I decided that I was going to go back to a "social group" that I somewhat belonged to in high school. I made the goal to go back in January 2024. I've been going since then, and I honestly can say that I've never been happier. I honestly don't think I even suffer from anxiety and depression anymore. I know that's probably hard to believe since it's only been three months, but these people have been and are some of the most welcoming and inviting people in my life. I actually have friends now and it's the weirdest feeling because I've only ever had online friends with the exception of maybe three in real life friends from a really long time ago that I don't really speak with much. Of course, my mind does make me feel like I don't belong sometimes, but I know that that's not true. I could go into more detail with this post, but the reason why I won't is because it's a religious social group and I don't want to seem like I'm forcing anything on you guys, because I definitely don't want to do that.

    I'll also post here that I'm recovering from my eating disorder and I have lost a lot of weight, which is good because I had binge eating disorder. As far as the post I made in the other topic about possible pancreatitis, they're going to do something on me where they have to put me to sleep and yeah, I'm nervous because I've never had something like that done before, but I know I'll be alright.

    Basically, I'm doing extremely great, both emotionally and (hopefully) physically.

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  3. The only one I've ever played is the Xbox 360. I haven't touched it since 2015. At some point, I left the batteries in the controller too long and they leaked and got the inside of the battery area rusty, so if I ever wanted to play it again, I would have to get a new controller off the internet somewhere. I don't really play video games at all these days, so I can't see myself doing that anytime soon. 

  4. Spongebob wall decor to hang up in my apartment 

    Spongebob socks

    Spongebob 2024 meme calendar

    Flying Dutchman board game from the episode arrgh 

    Kirby slippers

    Dog slippers

    Little Cesar's gift card

    Two chick fil a gift cards

    Another gift card that can be used at various restaurants 

    Glow in the dark pop it

    Marine life mocchis 

    Sushi squishies 

    Spongebob sweatpants 

    Two spongebob shirts 

    Two pairs of pajamas

    A new robe 

    Reeses and a reeses teddy bear

    Lindt chocolate 

    Spongebob mug 

    And there's probably a few more things I'm forgetting. 

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  5. I'm mentally and emotionally tired af. I'm tired of people not coming through when I need them too. I'm tired of being unimportant and worthless. Im tired of believing that people care about me and me believing that they love me when they don't. I'm tired of being nothing to anybody. I'm tired of being so depressed that I can't breathe and my head hurts. I'm tired. 

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  6. I'm a little emotional today, but I usually am around the holidays, especially Thanksgiving and Christmas. Those two holidays are overwhelming for me. They also make me think about the future and what am I going to do when I get much older and if I have no family around? I'm only 23, but the holidays make me think about that stuff too hard, and I get anxious about my birthday too. I've had people who I thought cared about me treat me like dirt on my birthday. I've even had family forget about my birthday even though it's not that hard to remember, considering it's Christmas eve. And I'm not talking about out of town family, I'm talking about family that I was living with at the time. I think I'm just anxious about my birthday this year because of my birthday last year, where I cried like three times. 

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