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CyanideFishbone

"So is that what you call a getaway?

Tell me what you got away with

Because I've seen more spine in jellyfish

I've seen more guts in 11 year old kids."

-Brand New, "Seventy Times Seven"

 

"You're running after something

That you'll never kill

And if this is you want

Then fire at will."

-My Chemical Romance, "Thank You For The Venom"

sigh.

 

This is a blog entry I have tried to make several times, as it is a hard thing to discuss, but it's god damn important, and it'll almost be three years since it happened, which I can't believe, but it makes me really happy knowing this is over. It's probably one of the most... significant parts of my life, sadly, and it's an awful event. The worst time of my life. Sigh.... yeah, here we go. It's something important to know when you really get to know me for a person. I've probably skimmed about this subject a few times before... but here we go. I just want to put a trigger warning for mentions of suicide and depression. So yeah, here we go. And I need to mention one thing: I'm a very mentally stable person right now. Anyway, I've probably mentioned a bit of this in that long MLP post I did, but yeah, I plan for this to be a bit more in detail and the real meat of what happened 3 years ago won't happen until a bit later.

 

Anyway, this story all started in fifth grade. What do I need to say about that year? It was one of the best of my life. In fourth grade, I began to drift off from other kids and they started... they started to kind of respect me again. I remember going home every day that year and watching shows like Shugo Chara, MLP, Regular Show, and Adventure Time and it was then, it was because of MLP and Shugo Chara that my interest in cartoons really started. Good teachers, friends, and good events, I really had it all. Anyway, around Spring that year, about 5 years ago, I started to get bullied by some students again because I liked MLP, and the staff even got involved. And it was all fixed and I had a very good year. In June 2012, I graduated 5th grade. I really thought things would continue to be great...

 

Then middle school happened.

 

My best friend from 3rd-5th grade went to another school and I entered 6th grade with one friend I made at camp that was going into my grade. Anyway, that year... Yeah, I started off with one friend and I had an immense struggle trying to get used to the customs of middle school. Then I met another kid who was the friend of my other friend... and well, I thought I had my friends for middle school. Anyway, around that time I began to be horribly bullied for liking MLP. I had personal threats and such, and some of the teachers... couldn't give a rats ass this was happening to me, although some did support me. It was such a goddamn awful time for me. And before I knew it, later in the year around April and May those friends began to turn my back on me, and I was holding on to their friendship by something small and almost non existent- interests, and the fact they were too inept and pathetic to ditch me as a friend. So that teetered on for a bit until I got out of school, and entered the worst fucking summer of my entire life (summer 2013).

 

I began to fight a lot with one of my friends, and on sight said pretty much "fuck off" to the other, because I couldn't take it anymore. Back then, I got... I got into Homestuck, something I loathe now. My friends... that was pretty much what ruined my friendship with the both of them. For some reason they could not handle the fact i liked Homestuck at all. And yeah, I began to make a good friend because of that interest, who I really thought would bring the end to this... to this dark age, but he was a friend who cared about me, and a friend that I haven't talked to in a DAMN long time, but one I am still on really good terms with.

 

But yeah, than, August that year my 7th grade year started. I was left in middle school with a ton of bullies, but with no friends of my own. The month I stayed at that school... Probably one of the hardest months in my entire life, my goodness. I was still bullied a lot, but one instance when some kids tried to steal my backpack really stuck a nerve with my mom, who requested a transfer in September of that year.

 

It... well, I do think it was better to transfer in the long run, god knows what would have happened if I stayed at the other school, but things still were fucking awful right off the bat at this new school. I had a really hard time conversing with a lot of people, and I was so.... on edge from everything happening around me prior that I was irritable and had a lot of strong outbursts of anger during class. Nothing really changed at all for that point, although a good amount of good kids at that school did not judge me, and I appreciated that so much. Overall, calling it a tough time was a fucking understatement by a mile.

 

.....

 

 

....

 

 

And here's where the meat of all this comes in.

I...... I met someone. To put it quite simply, I met a girl. Umm, well, I guess calling her something like "that girl" would be dumb, so I'll have to choose a name similar to that.... How about Amanda? Yeah, Amanda sounds fine for the job. Anyway, I met this girl named Amanda. She was this girl who was in my Science, Computers (shit like typing and some other computer programs, EXTREMELY low key and fun class.), and History classes. Right of the bat, she was someone who was very kind to me. We weren't friends or anything, but we were incredibly civil and kind to each other. She was nice as hell, and just generally was a sweet person. And she wasn't a prep or anything, she was this kind of.... well, she was super into all the generic Hot Topic kind of bands (I could call them emo but that would be an insult to bands like The Get Up Kids and The Promise Ring) and had this super laid back personality. Seemed like the person who was always fun loving, always able to vent with, and was just really fucking fun to be around.

 

And well, after a while..... I realized I liked her. And no, I am not fucking talking like. I'm talking adored. You know how in elementary school you think you have crushes on people but like you're too naive to realize it? I did, and this was my first full blown fucking crush. I was OBSESSED with this girl. Like, not to a stalker level, but like someone experiencing their first love, which I was. I thought Amanda would be the light at the end of the tunnel, the light that would escape me from all of this shit going on. Depression, loneliness, still getting over my problems, and the fact I was getting harshly bullied by some assholes I know an another forum, which luckily does not exist anymore. Don't even want to think about that shit.

 

But yeah, fucking Amanda. I was just..... god. Fantasy after fantasy I had, of a visionary me asking her out and her gladly saying yes and the two of us going to the mall or some shit and just being a couple, and being the light at the end of the tunnel. This went on for so goddamn long, and one thing. She had a boyfriend. Ha ha this kid is actually in my graphic design class this year, ha ha funny shit. He's one of the douchey (I have not spoken a word to him and I'm glad I haven't, seems like a douche but I don't know him) "bro" lacrosse players here, and even though she had a boyfriend, I fucking LONGED for the day the two split apart and I'd come in. I now, fucking delusional, but I was a 12 year old with my first crush, so you can give me a pass, right?

 

Shit went on for a while.... until late January. I remember this day vividly. Well, that friend I mentioned having in the summer? I saw him almost every weekend during, well, with this event... most of 7th grade. I even told him about Amanda and how much I loved her and everything... I remember going into detail the time I saw him right before this event. Anyway, due to a complication... we couldn't see each other anymore. And this.... this fucking teared me up. I remember getting the news and just trying with all the emotional might and my entire body not to just break out into so many tears. However, one thing I did, was I pressed on knowing that.... knowing that Amanda was there.

 

February 17th, 2014.

 

Sounds like a normal day, right? And you know what, it was. It really was, until 8th period that day. 8th period was my final class of the day. History. Which as I've stated before, I shared with Amanda. Anyway, on the very edge of it all, I told her how I felt. I really did. I had to come clean about everything. I told her I loved her and I've had a large crush on her. Despite me coming in at a bad time because I was a 12 year old with raging hormones, she took it extremely well. She thought it was cute and all, and that fucking made my day. I remember blushing so hard. It was such a happy day for me.

 

Well, here we are. As I've said many times, dark journal entry. Here's where it's gonna get extremely dark. So, well, the big point of this part is that this is your chance to get out. Because as I've said, it's getting fucking dark here.

 

........

 

A while later, about 10 or more days past. Early March 2014 sounds right. I can't pinpoint the exact thing that happened, but it was something. There was probably not a single point where it was lost, but oh boy, it was fuckin' lost. Amanda... started isolating herself from me. And I have no idea why. It got to the point where she constantly flashed certain angry faces at me, glaring in anger, even when I was near.

 

Never before have I had my heart crushed as hard as when that fucking happened. It literally felt like iron thorns pierced my heart, it got stomped on about 100 times with the spurs on a pair of cowboy boots, and then it was spit on. I know it's overly poetic, and probably dumb sounding, but that was how I felt. I basically lost all reason, I lost all motivation inside of me to keep on going. I wanted to leave school and all. I remember telling my mom, without not mentioning Amanda, that I just needed the get the fuck away from school. I grew irritable around almost anyone. I really, well...... I completely lost all motivation in me to live. To keep going. And well, i........ I made plans to take my own life.

One of the big things igniting my anger was the fact that no one saw her the way I did. Everyone loved her, everyone thought she was this great girl, which.... well, luckily we go to different schools, but it seems like things haven't changed a bit, sadly. I have close friends who know what happened, and well, they seem to shun her about it, I'm not positive, but I think it's the way. But yeah, that was one of the greatest things igniting my anger.

 

 

 

 

I turned 13 on April 17th, 2014. It was a good birthday for what it was, I guess. Well, if you took my major depression out of the equation, it would be. Now I can only look back on that birthday and just feel so fucking sad. 

April 18th, 2014. I remember all these days so well, leading up to the event. I was taken out of school early that day because my mom was willing to because I had guests over, and yeah, I really remember going home and really using a lot of my birthday presents.

April 19th, 2014. Very rainy day. The day before Easter. My guest, my now deceased aunt, took me and my sister to this one big arcade place with go karts and stuff near our house. It was really our thing; she would take us and we would have fun at that. 

April 20th, 2014. Easter. Depressing day. Had a fight with my dad that day, who I was having troubles with my relationship with him during that time (We are fine now), and just grew even deeper.

April 21st, 2014.... pretty normal day, honestly. Don't remember much at all.

 

Here comes the dreaded day.

April 22nd, 2014. This is a day that will live in infamy for me, and well, a lot happened that day. I can remember the day to the most minute details.

 

I woke up that morning. I think I ate biscuits for breakfast? Probably. Watched JonTron (this was years before all that white nationalist shit happened) before school. Went to school. It was a pretty normal day, that is until my 3rd period class, which I had Gym, that the main..... the main events of the day occurred. 

That day was the day where the elementary schoolers going into middle school toured the school. Obviously, students were chosen to be tour guides for the elementary schoolers and guess who was chosen? Yeah, fucking Amanda was chosen. I remember I was in my 3rd period gym class and Amanda and her group came down. This pissed me off so goddamn much. I remember seeing that and just getting so angry. And a few others were complimenting her and stuff like that, and it just seemed like those fifth graders were really enjoying her presence.

....

That was when I fucking LOST it. I can't think of a single moment in my entire life where I was that angry, and so... so not myself.

I began to scream. I began to just let out all of my inner anger, that anger I've channeled in myself for over a month, out. I ran, I was in hysterics. I frantically ran to the gym's exercise room and found like the end of a dumbbell or something like that and in anger, for some reason, I only lightly hit it on my head a couple of times. Than after a little bit of further raging, the bell rang and I went to my next period-Art. Well, after entering, before the teacher was in I knocked over like two or three chairs on accident and then I think someone heard me? Something like that, that part is a big foggy. Anyway, i was just...... at that point, I was bawling. Honestly, I don't think I've cried as hard as I did on that day. I remember that my eyes were pretty foggy for like 30 minutes straight I cried so hard. Anyway, I was sent to counseling and well, when a social worker came and asked me what was going on.... I..... I came clean.

 

I remember telling that worker I just... i didn't know what to do anymore. And yeah, I remember that's when I broke it to her and said I was feeling suicidal. Anyway, after that, I went on with my day for a bit when I got called to the office during lunch time. I enter the office, get sent to the counseling room and I see my dad there, who proceeds to take me home. I couldn't go back to school until I saw a psychiatric doctor. Anyway, my mom who was like an hour away had to stop everything she was doing and come back home to comfort me. Anyway, it's just.... I remember after going home we went to a few doctors and my psychiatrist at the time. After that, I just remember my mom crying to me later in the day, asking why I wanted to take my life. I just came clean about everything, my position in life, and everything. And well, yeah, I missed school the next day.

 

From that point, I got the help I absolutely needed. And well, i'm so glad I did. I got medicine I still take to this day for anxiety and it's just, well nothing was perfect right away (I was pretty fucked up after the whole incident but as time went on my mental health really improved), and yeah.

 

I guess that's really it. I can't say much else. I hate Amanda a lot and rank her as the worst person I've had the misfortune of meeting. When I'm typing this, it's, well, it's April 22.

 

-Ryan

 

CyanideFishbone

oooh boy, this entry was a long time coming.

 

There is no holding back. I am going in. I can't fucking take this shit anymore.

 

I absolutely loathe my math class. I am not exaggerating when I say I despise my god forsaken, awful, putrid, brain numbing, boring, every single negative word in the goddamn English Dictionary.... math class. I seriously do not know what to do with this anymore. If anyone is willing to lend me a hand with this, I will take it gleefully. It's driving me up a wall. 

 

Now, to start, I did.... Alright, in Math 1. You see, where I am, you take 3 levels of math: Math 1, Math 2, Math 3. Some students start Math 1 in 8th grade, some even go into Math 3 at the start of freshman year, all depends on your level of experience. I was a normal student, like a good amount, and started with Math 1 Freshman year. I did... alright in that class. I understood most of the concepts, but I struggled a bit with quizzes and tests, but I've always struggled with those. We had a lot of teacher changes in that class, for the better, and for the worse (One teacher had a meltdown in class, that was really abrupt and weird), and yeah, I did alright. And I really enjoyed Math from doing pretty decently. So, the most logical thing to do would be to take the Honors course next year, right? And that's what I did. I even talked to my teacher about it. I also did Honors English, but here's the thing with that class: I absolutely love it, and I have been given an amazing teacher who I think understands me on a level that I don't think ANY teacher in my entire life has. Anyway, but yeah I did Honors Math 2 (Honors Math 1 does not exist for some reason, I have no idea why, probably because of the fact it's practically a middle school level class)

 

What a big fat fucking mistake. My god. 

 

Anyway, when schedules came out.... I got, a teacher pretty much considered school wide to be the worst teacher in the school. I still tried to go in with a positive attitude, and I did. And honestly, for a while, she seemed fine. Than it struck me, a few months in.

 

I am not learning ANYTHING.

 

I am literally not learning anything. My teacher, while being nice does not connect with the students one bit. She very briefly discusses things, with almost zero elaboration, with almost no actually going in depth with the concepts, and I really noted by big struggles. And this is where I am. Anyway, my teacher... She seems like the type who would be best suited teaching middle schoolers, maybe even kindergarteners. Considering her tone of voice, her attitude, she treats us like elementary schoolers. It's seriously so annoying. She has that super soft Bill Clinton-esque voice and just always acts obnoxiously happy about things. It's so goddamn annoying, I can't emphasize it enough. Anyway, as I said, when it comes to teaching things in her class, all she does is cover subjects for literally 5-10 minutes, gives us a worksheet working out what we just learned, and when I even ask her, she usually responds with a 1/2 sentence response, usually not helping at all. It's seriously, just I can't emphasize how BAD of a teacher she is. It's amazing. And I've had friends who had her in the past and had the same struggles I had, and if they can survive it, so can I, so I'll have to drag myself across the finish line. I've taken chunks out of my own time to try to speak with her about stuff I'm struggling with, cutting out time from lunch to do so, and you know what? Same 1-2 word or sentence response that doesn't help me at all. It's just baffling to me, and it infuriates me even thinking about it. I can't take this anymore. The last time I have to step foot in that god forsaken classroom will be a day of grand celebration.

 

Anyway, as i was saying, and it isn't the teacher too. I hate the kids in my class so much. There isn't many I tolerate. I tolerate one sophomore in my class who's really chill, but beside that, the only other sophomores in that class are one kid who used to be pretty civil towards me that I'm pretty sure fucking hates me now, two preppy girls I can't stand, one really weird kid that I hate, and it's just, yeah, beside that, freshmen preps, freshman fuckboys, freshmen who act like douches to be cool, and yeah, I literally hate everyone in that class so much that I end up sitting in the very back, away from everyone.

 

I would get into that i really dislike one kid in my class, but there's not much of a point honestly. Just, god, I'm so screwed, I hate that class so goddamn much it isn't even funny.

CyanideFishbone

Hey look guess who's back, back again, Cyanide's back, tell a friend, maybe, I don't really care

 

But yeah I'm making yet another Shugo Chara blog entry. You maybe noticed that I briefly mentioned that I would make an entry discussing some of the show's merchandise? Well, here we are. Too much shit going on personally and in my life that I need to talk about something I love.

 

This will be... kind of a varied entry. I'll just mainly be discussing some noticeable pieces of merchandise and some stuff I pick up on. So yeah, it's a shorter, less lengthy blog entry, but I still think it would be really fun.

 

http://www.ebay.com/itm/Shugo-Chara-June-2008-Nakayoshi-Furoku-Seiyo-Elementary-Guardian-Notebook-/152467830195

 

First one I'd like to mention. First I want to visit EBay, Amazon, and then probably some smaller websites, and yeah, this is an EBay link. Anyway, this is interesting as for a notebook, it's starting bid is 10.00. I just wanted to make a comparison to a Miku notebook I bought for almost 30 dollars at a Kinokuniya in NYC this fall, that was pretty much an impulse buy. Then again, it depends on the seller, and considering Kinokuniya is a big franchise in Japan, I can obviously see the mark-up. But yeah, seeing the pages in the notebook, I really love the design choices. On the fourth photo I really love that chibi Amu in the top right side of the second page. And just the general art style of all of it. But yeah, really damn cool notebook.

 

http://www.ebay.com/itm/Shugo-Chara-February-2010-Nakayoshi-Furoku-Lipstick-Eraser-/152467835561

 

That design of Amu caught my eye instantly. Really awesome design choice.

 

http://www.ebay.com/itm/Shugo-Chara-June-2007-Nakayoshi-Furoku-Rainbow-Pencil-/152467829288

Yet another Amu design choice that caught my eye. Really wonder if this was promotional material for the anime, as even though the manga came before, it was only 4 months by then when the anime premiered in Japan.

 

http://www.ebay.com/itm/Shugo-Chara-SR-Part-2-HOSHINA-UTAU-Mini-Figure-Takara-Tomy-Japan-/272577349957

Awesome Utau figure that I'm surprised costs that much. Usually figures like that go higher. But it is an auction. 

 

http://www.ebay.com/itm/SHUGO-CHARA-Pouch-Peach-Pit-promo-ROZEN-MAIDEN-Amu-/321531441320?hash=item4adcc470a8:m:matfcgyMXaXRI9bCdzHtc7A

Love the beach theme on this. Really nice to look at, really cool looking. 

 

Onto the world of Amazon. 

 

https://www.amazon.com/Shugo-Chara-Necklace-golden-opened/dp/B00BMHLWQG/ref=sr_1_6?ie=UTF8&qid=1489284106&sr=8-6&keywords=shugo+chara

Cool jewelry set, just surprised it goes for 18 dollars. Probably made of cheap material, but still a cool thing.

https://www.amazon.com/MiracleL-Cosplay-Backpack-Messenger-Shoulder/dp/B01MEEFEFJ/ref=sr_1_33?ie=UTF8&qid=1489284259&sr=8-33&keywords=shugo+chara

Really awesome messenger bag that I really wouldn't mind buying to use.

https://www.amazon.com/MiracleL-Cosplay-Backpack-Messenger-Shoulder/dp/B01M3P28LH/ref=sr_1_48?ie=UTF8&qid=1489284221&sr=8-48&keywords=shugo+chara

Personally prefer the other bag's design, while I still like this one. Maybe I just really like Utau.

https://www.amazon.com/Siawasey-Cosplay-Backpack-Messenger-Shoulder/dp/B00WEIPXO4/ref=sr_1_55?ie=UTF8&qid=1489284408&sr=8-55&keywords=shugo+chara

And I like this design even more.

https://www.amazon.com/Anime-Fabric-Wall-Scroll-Poster/dp/B00F5BPGV2/ref=sr_1_85?ie=UTF8&qid=1489284434&sr=8-85&keywords=shugo+chara

Awesome wall scroll, and it's cheap!

https://www.amazon.com/Tsukasa-Amakawa-Shugo-Chara-School/dp/B01N1JYY60/ref=sr_1_139?ie=UTF8&qid=1489284576&sr=8-139&keywords=shugo+chara

If you ever needed a tiny backpack with Ikuto's face on it, well, here you go.

 

And well, that was my little excursion. Yeah I know it's a little unamusing, but I wanted to visit some merch. I checked some other sites but really couldn't find much. Until next time!

CyanideFishbone

Okay, I'm sorry that this isn't a entry about shows I like and stuff like that, and on top of this, this will be a political post. Now, this isn't about Jeff Sessions and Russia or whatever hell has broke loose in Trump's cabinet today, but my mind has been blown. And yes, this is about Trump, for the most part.

 

I just watched the Jimmy Kimmel George W. Bush interview. I had no idea this happened but I saw it on Youtube's front page and decided to watch it. And I'm watching an interview with a man who pushed the nation into war, destroyed the economy, restricted abortions on gay rights, and flushed the biggest economic surplus in American history right down the toilet. So I was curious what I was going to be in for.

 

I found him so..... tame?

 

No, I'm not kidding. I can't believe I'm saying this, but he was so.... pleasureful to watch. He was genuinely funny, was playing along with Kimmel's jokes (and even made some good ones, that Tricia Nixon joke was fucking hysterical) and it really got me thinking on how extreme everything has gotten. I couldn't believe what was rushing through my mind, so I decided to take a peek at the comments, which turned out to mostly be Trump supporters calling Kimmel a hypocrite (I don't even watch Jimmy Kimmel so I can't really speak on that) but god... it's gotten to the point where one of the most infamous liberal punching bags has become tame? (I don't have a party stance right now because the Democratic Party pretty much needs to revamp their party after this election, but politically I align with Democratic ideals)

Now, it's obvious that you don't have to be a good person to be a good president. Hell, look at Bill Clinton. But the thing is Bush threw a lot of human rights straight out the window, something i hold in very high regard with knowing gay people personally. God, I just don't know. My point, i guess, is that it's amazing to me is ten years ago Bush was seen as so extreme and evil, and now 10 years later it's completely shifted. 

Obviously Trump isn't a Republican. He's a god damn extremist with no self control. Bush.... was different. While being a war mongering asshat, he was still... he was as a politician. God, I don't even know anymore. Maybe I should come back to talk about this, but god, it's just so weird how everything's so shifted. These extremists have seized our country and continue to have no regard for anyone but the 1%, and this was how Bush was seen 10 years ago. It's like people's own imaginations of Bush took office.

Hell, my mom who has lived through Nixon, Reagan, and both Bushes says nothing like this has ever happened, and I'm sure my dad would say the same thing as they're almost the same age. God, watching that interview, it's so god damn weird to me.

As I said, god I don't fucking know. This has been a mess, and maybe I need some time to really pin point this down, but it's so weird to me. But what the hell do I know, I was born a few months into Bush's presidency before 9/11, and barely remembered anything in the news at that time because, well, I was a kid. God, it's just so weird. And yes, as I've said a million times now, this has been your daily mess provided by CyanideFishbone. 

 

 

CyanideFishbone

Oh hey look back it's me with another entry of Shugo Chara Month. Yeah, sorry about the delays. I've been preoccupied. Right now I wanted to go back into detail about Shugo Chara Party-

 

Sorry, that was literally the entire fanbase's reaction to it.

Okay sorry I had to make that joke, yes I know it's lame. 

Anyway I wanted to talk about it again as I consider it one of the most interesting things to talk about with the show, honestly. It's very different and it's very split amongst fans, but I wanted to get a little more in detail of why I'm alright with some of the new characters and changes, which I didn't feel like I got in detail about enough. I plan to talk about most forms of Shugo Chara btw, aside from the show (I plan to make an entry based on probably some merch and maybe one of the video games, it'll be a shorter entry) However, I will not talk about the musical... we do not speak of THAT.

 

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alright that out of the way, I wanted to go more in detail on some of the changes. This entry will be small; maybe not of importance, but I wanted to acknowledge a bit of the criticism and why I disagree with it, as I said, I didn't feel I went as in depth as I want to about it in previous entires.

DISCLAIMER: I am not saying these opinions are wrong. If someone dislikes these characters for these reasons, I do disagree with you, but I don't think you're wrong. It's an opinion. 

 

Anyway, the major criticism I see for both Rikka and Hikaru is they eat up too much time and honestly, that's fair. I felt they got too much of a presence. There should've been a few major sections of episodes where they were gone, and I feel like a bit of the cameos of them felt a bit forced (like it was completely unnecessary for him to just APPEAR in that one episode where Amu babysits Ami when they were playing with super soakers) and I feel like they got too much screen time. Now... I do think there's a reason for that, and that is both Rikka and Hikaru are exclusively Party characters, and should be treated as a major part of the plot because of that, I just felt we should have had a bit more breathing room for that.

The other biggest criticism was no Ikuto. This one I disagree with. I kind of like how he went out of country because his ark was, honestly... kind of done. As much as i do like Yoru and Ikuto, their ark was done. Of course Ikuto went crazy for that bit in Doki and Yoru stuck with Amu and the rest because of it, and of course Ikuto's strange role in Easter, but after he left and got back to normal and everything there wasn't too much to build off of, and the route of him going to France to practice violin felt extremely natural for his character progression IMO. If he was more prevalent in Party I feel like he'd just kind of show up and mess around with Amu and they'd have a bit of a fun time or whatever, which could've created some comedy, but that's really it. Outside of more specific parts of his past which I really don't see as mandatory, I don't think much could've been made from his character for that bit. Obviously the finale utilized him very well.

On the characters being annoying or distracting, the only way i can see Hikaru being annoying is if you disliked him as a character, and that's really it. I really did enjoy his chemistry with Rikka and Amu; he's the outsider, the alien to human life, and learns along the way with Amu and Rikka. That was mainly his role, and I felt like it was fulfilled very well. Really enjoyed to see him turn from an emotionless robot to someone with joy, happiness, and meaning. It's pretty beautiful. As for Rikka.... yes, she should have been toned down. I did find her annoying at times. But I mean, at the same time I can appreciate her joyful attitude. She's supposed to be super naive and Amu is the tutor, which I kind of find interesting as a way to show how much Amu has progressed, from initially being taught to fight in Season 1 and all that stuff to her teaching it to a younger child in Season 3. It's a really big character jump and i like how it's portrayed. But yeah, Rikka should have been toned down a bit. She didn't need to go fucking everywhere Amu went.

 

That's really my biggest problem, I felt the last season focused TOO MUCH on Rikka and Hikaru. Obviously they should be focused on a good amount, but it should have been toned down a bit in my opinion.

 

Anyway that's really it. I really apologize for my delays. I hope more entries will be made in March. 

CyanideFishbone

Hey, it's Ryan back with the first edition of Shugo Chara Month! Well, months, but who really cares. Sorry it took this long to write my first entry. School has been stressing me out recently and I've been pretty preoccupied. Expect to see these blog entries mostly on the weekends. But anyways, today, I want to talk about some of my personal memories with Shugo Chara.

 

The first memory dates back to the fifth grade, where most of these come from. I remember in fifth grade, well, actually all of elementary school, we had a time for independent reading. I remember hating it due to it being boring and I also remember specifically in the fifth grade it was RIGHT BEFORE RECESS, so that was daunting over you the entire period. Man, on a side note I can't believe it's been FIVE YEARS SINCE FIFTH GRADE FOR ME, but anyway that's for another time. Anyway, I have two specific stories from independent reading involving Shugo Chara. My first one is when I was in fifth grade, I used some paper to make my own Shugo Chara bookmark. What I remember most from the bookmark is it contained all of the names of the charas, even including one time characters like Snoppe for some reason. Anyway, I used this bookmark avidly for most of my fifth grade and I'm pretty sweet toward it. I really wish I could find it someday for happiness, but I probably still have it somewhere in my binder from fifth grade in my closet.

The second memory from independent reading was I remember every Friday I think it was we were able to bring in our own books. Usually on Monday through Thursday we had to read books in the class, most of which majorly disinterested me as back then not a lot of things interested me too much. Thus every Friday I stole one of my older sister's Shugo Chara manga (which she was fine with!) and read it in class. Oh man, that brings back so many memories, even bittersweet ones. I remember we did a lot of student-teacher conferences for our reading where the teacher took notes about what the student was reading, and I did a few for the manga, the main one I remember was Volume 5. I still have those notes around somewhere, they're also in that binder, and I may very well put them up here if anyone wants to see them. Anyway, another story I remember is that first off my best friend rode my bus in fifth grade so we would usually sit together, but sometimes when he wasn't here or we just didn't sit together I would sit by myself, and usually read Shugo Chara manga. I even did this in sixth grade when I hated a lot of the kids in my bus but I read the Puchi Puchi manga (Which is HIGHLY RECOMMENDED by me, it's HYSTERICAL) on the bus. Anyway, back to fifth grade. I remember I was reading it once on the bus when some dumb like first grader saw the book and started shouting "HE'S A GIRL" or some shit like that because of the cover, which actually does make me laugh now as much as it did piss me off back then.

Another memory I have, a small one, was i would draw the chara eggs for Ran, Miki, Su, and Dia on the little slips of paper that told you which section was for which subject in school. I remember it as something like Ran for Math, Miki for Writing, Su for Science and Dia for History but I'm probably wrong, but yeah, that was another thing I did.

One that really makes me cringe was right at the start of fifth grade I insisted everyone would call me "The Joker" in reference to Amu's Guardian position. God that makes me cringe thinking about it, but yeah, I really did that. Another thing I remember was when I got angry, which was very often then, I would pretend to character transform, usually with Yoru or Pepe. Man, I was a weird kid in fifth and sixth grade. Oh yeah and seventh but we don't speak of those times.

 

Anyways that's all I have right now! I will be sure to return with another installment of Shugo Chara Month probably this weekend.

CyanideFishbone

I know I said that the next two months would be full of Shugo Chara-centric blog entires, and I'll get to those. But first I really wanted to do this.

 

LINK: http://cmacmac.tumblr.com/post/77276085639

  • 1: Name
  • My name is Ryan. That's all I'll say, but my first name is Ryan. 
  • 2: Age
  • I am 15 years old.
  • 3: 3 Fears
  • Elevators, isolation, and death.
  • 4: 3 things I love
  • Music, animation, and video games.
  • 5: 4 turns on
  • Don't feel comfortable answering this. PM if you want to know.
  • 6: 4 turns off
  • What I said for turns on.
  • 7: My best friend
  • My best friend is my cousin who lives in Washington. IRL, i have a few good friends I know from school and a few from middle school.
  • 8: Sexual orientation
  • I am straight.
  • 9: My best first date
  • Never been on a date.
  • 10: How tall am I
  • I am 6'1.
  • 11: What do I miss
  • Honestly, not at the moment. In the future, of course.
  • 12: What time were I born
  • I was born early in the morning, I'm pretty sure. Around 8 AM.
  • 13: Favorite color
  • Black. No I'm not emo.
  • 14: Do I have a crush
  • No, not right now.
  • 15: Favorite quote
  • I don't have specifically a favorite, but my favorite right now might be "I can't believe I ate the whole thing."- Homer Simpson
  • 16: Favorite place
  • Got a lot of places I love to be, depends on the time. Don't really have a "favorite place"
  • 17: Favorite food
  • Something mexican, like either a quesadilla or a burrito. I quite like fried chicken too.
  • 18: Do I use sarcasm
  • Yes, pretty much all the time.
  • 19: What am I listening to right now
  • Right now, I am listening to The Reflex by Duran Duran, Seven and The Ragged Tiger version (not the remixed one)
  • 20: First thing I notice in new person
  • Body language
  • 21: Shoe size
  • I think I'm a Mens 12.
  • 22: Eye color
  • Blu-ish green
  • 23: Hair color
  • Dirty blonde
  • 24: Favorite style of clothing
  • I dress very casually. I usually wear a t-shirt and/or hoodie and a pair of jeans every day.
  • 25: Ever done a prank call?
  • Yes, in the seventh grade. Cringy shit.
  • 27: Meaning behind my URL
  • I'll just do my username, but my username came from my edgelord 13 year old self thinking the word "Cyanide" sounds cool (which it still does) and I used to draw a little fishbone as a part of my signature IRL, which I still do time to time. That's where my username comes from.
  • 28: Favorite movie
  • Not a huge movie person, but probably the South Park movie I guess.
  • 29: Favorite song
  • I literally do not have one single favorite song. I usually have favorite songs for periods of time, can't say I have one right now though. 
  • 30: Favorite band
  • My absolute favorite band of all time is At The Drive-In, but my other favorites include Green Day, AFI, Descendents, Blink-182, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Smashing Pumpkins, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Weezer, and My Chemical Romance.
  • 31: How I feel right now
  • I'm pretty calm right now.
  • 32: Someone I love
  • I love my parents and sister, and my friends and some of my cousins and distant family.
  • 33: My current relationship status
  • I am single.
  • 34: My relationship with my parents
  • Me and my parents are on good terms.
  • 35: Favorite holiday
  • Tie between Christmas and Halloween. Probably Christmas, while I love Halloween it just isn't as fun as it was when I was younger, which actually does make me a bit sad.
  • 36: Tattoos and piercing i have
  • Don't have any.
  • 37: Tattoos and piercing i want
  • I don't want a piercing, but I wouldn't mind getting a few small tattoos when I'm older.
  • 38: The reason I joined Tumblr
  • I'll just do my reason for joining SBC. In late 2012 I went through a phrase where I was obsessed with SpongeBob and I stumbled upon this forum and began browsing. However, it wasn't until February 2013 I made my account.
  • 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
  • I have never dated anyone.
  • 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
  • Sometimes
  • 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
  • No.
  • 42: When did I last hold hands?
  • Don't remember 
  • 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
  • Like five minutes on school days, sometimes 10 on weekends because I have more time.
  • 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?
  • Never shaved my legs.
  • 45: Where am I right now?
  • On my third floor (basically like an entertainment room) on my computer listening to Duran Duran.
  • 46: If I were drunk; can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
  • Probably my parents or sister, but it depends where I am in that situation. 
  • 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
  • Usually at a reasonable level, loud when I'm home alone and I'm feeling rambunctious. 
  • 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
  • Yes
  • 49: Am I excited for anything?
  • At the moment, nah, not really.
  • 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
  • Yeah, a female friend of mine who I met in eighth grade.
  • 51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
  • Not every often.
  • 52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
  • Probably when I left California on New Year's Eve and I was saying goodbye to my distant family.
  • 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
  • I can't remember the last person I kissed, but I know I didn't do it romantically. I honestly can't really answer that.
  • 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
  • No, not really
  • 55: What is something I disliked about today?
  • Something personal, yes. Before you ask, I'm fine.
  • 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
  • Oooh god. Here we fuckin go my dudes. Cedric Bixler-Zavala, Gerard Way, more members of my favorite bands, voice actors, artists, more.
  • 57: What do I think about most?
  • My own creations and usually what is happening during the day.
  • 58: What’s my strangest talent?
  • I have pretty much memorized the calendar, and can guess the day of the week someone's birthday is on in the future. It was something I learned in elementary school which came from studying calendar patterns. I'm actually a bit infamous in my family because of it. If you want to see me doing it, just ask me and I'll do it.
  • 59: Do I have any strange phobias?
  • Elevators freak me out, but that's probably because I'm claustrophobic.
  • 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
  • Depends on the photo, but probably behind it.
  • 61: What was the last lie I told?
  • Man I don't know, but probably often.
  • 62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
  • Video chatting.
  • 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
  • Don't believe in either, but both are pretty cool IMO.
  • 64: Do I believe in magic?
  • Nah.
  • 65: Do I believe in luck?
  • Sort of.
  • 66: What's the weather like right now?
  • It's a very clear night.
  • 67: What was the last book I've read?
  • The 1st issue of the Toradora manga.
  • 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
  • Hell no.
  • 69: Do I have any nicknames?
  • Nope, not really. Sometimes my mom calls me Ry, by my first name and middle name, and sometimes by the initial of my first name and middle name. That would be RF, as F is my middle initial. If you want to know exactly what that is i guess just PM me.
  • 70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?
  • Never really had any really bad injuries, but I was born with a dysfunctional kidney that I had to have surgery over in the first grade.
  • 71: Do I spend money or save it?
  • I'm much more of a spender, but I can save money.
  • 72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?
  • No, I've tried so hard so many times for some reason
  • 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?
  • Yes
  • 74: Favorite animal?
  • I love koalas, cats, and chinchillas, but chinchillas are my favorite animals.
  • 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
  • Sleeping, as it was a school night.
  • 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
  • Probably something really unfortunate
  • 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
  • Oh I got quite a bit of these. Maps by Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots Pt. 1 by The Flaming Lips, Welcome To The Black Parade, pretty much the entire Shugo Chara ost including openings and endings, View From Heaven by Yellowcard, I could be here a while.
  • 78: How can you win my heart?
  • Buy me a pizza. Or chicken. Either will work. Or express similar interests as me. Now that i think about it there's a lot of ways.
  • 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
  • Don't know yet.
  • 80: What is my favorite word?
  • I have a lot of favorite words, but one of my favorites is defenestrate. 
  • 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr
  • Can't answer, not on tumblr
  • 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
  • I would tell the whole world to try to be less shitty.
  • 83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
  • Nope
  • 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
  • I always wanted the super power of mind reading
  • 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
  • Probably something really personal.
  • 86: What is my current desktop picture?
  • My current desktop photo is The Great Wave Off Kanagawa.
  • 87: Had sex?
  • Nope, i'm 15.
  • 88: Bought condoms?
  • Nope
  • 89: Gotten pregnant?
  • Nope
  • 90: Failed a class?
  • I almost failed Science in 8th grade one quarter and almost failed Math lass quarter.
  • 91: Kissed a boy?
  • Nope
  • 92: Kissed a girl?
  • Probably
  • 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
  • Don't think so
  • 94: Had job?
  • No
  • 95: Left the house without my wallet?
  • Yeah, every now and then, but it's usually when I go somewhere where I don't need it.
  • 96: Bullied someone on the internet?
  • No, but I did use to get bullied on the internet.
  • 97: Had sex in public?
  • No
  • 98: Played on a sports team?
  • Yeah, played on some soccer team when I was like five. Hated it.
  • 99: Smoked weed?
  • No
  • 100: Did drugs?
  • No
  • 101: Smoked cigarettes?
  • No
  • 102: Drank alcohol?
  • No
  • 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
  • No
  • 104: Been overweight?
  • I was a bit overweight during sixth grade.
  • 105: Been underweight?
  • Nah
  • 106: Been to a wedding?
  • Probably, but I was very little
  • 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
  • Probably
  • 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
  • Maybe, I don't know
  • 109: Been outside my home country?
  • Nope
  • 110: Gotten my heart broken?
  • Yes. Seventh grade. What a fucking awful year.
  • 111: Been to a professional sports game?
  • Yes, multiple times.
  • 112: Broken a bone?
  • Nope
  • 113: Cut myself?
  • Gonna be real here, yes. Seventh grade. Before you ask, I'm perfectly fine now, but yeah, I did a few times in seventh grade.
  • 114: Been to prom?
  • No
  • 115: Been in airplane?
  • Several times.
  • 116: Fly by helicopter?
  • Nah
  • 117: What concerts have I been to?
  • I've been to a Rush concert and a Weird Al concert. I plan to go to so many more.
  • 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
  • No
  • 119: Learned another language?
  • I'm taking French right now.
  • 120: Wore make up?
  • Yeah, a few times. 
  • 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
  • No
  • 122: Had oral sex?
  • No
  • 123: Dyed my hair?
  • No
  • 124: Voted in a presidential election?
  • No, but I plan to in 2020.
  • 125: Rode in an ambulance?
  • No
  • 126: Had a surgery?
  • Yes, as I said, when I was in first grade
  • 127: Met someone famous?
  • I've met two voice actors at a convention. I've been on a plane with Pete Rose. Not much else 
  • 128: Stalked someone on a social network?
  • No
  • 129: Peed outside?
  • Several times. I actually did today.
  • 130: Been fishing?
  • Yes. I fucking hated it, it's so damn boring IMO.
  • 131: Helped with charity?
  • I think? I don't know honestly
  • 132: Been rejected by a crush?
  • Yup. Once in seventh grade (that one was a bit different, I've been meaning to get really into detail about that since it's a really important part of my life but I couldn't do it), twice in eighth grade.
  • 133: Broken a mirror?
  • Nah
  • 134: What do I want for birthday?
  • Can't say right now.
CyanideFishbone

I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT!

 

For the next month (February, and maybe even into March!) I will be doing a "Shugo Chara Month"...... (s). Anyway, during Shugo Chara Month, I will make a string of blog entries talking about the show's characters, music, story arcs, personal experiences with this amazing fucking show, and even will probably end up doing a list of my top 10 favorite episodes! I'm not certain what the first entry will be, but it will come soon.

CyanideFishbone

Considering that I wrapped up Shugo Chara yesterday, I wanted to make a string of blog entries about my experiences with the show, and various things I wanted to talk about. The thing on the mind is the final season, Shugo Chara Party, which very well be the most controversial thing about this show. The third season, where a lot of people believed the show went south. What do I think about it?

Oh yeah they'll be spoilers in this too.

 

While I think it's the worst of all the seasons, I still really liked it. Yeah, and I'll give my reasons as to why.

I need to note the changes given in this season first of all. In the first season and Doki, the show was all anime. 22 minutes of anime. That's changed here. The episodes are now shorter, they are about 11 minutes (A pretty common format for the length of American cartoons, Spongebob uses this format as I'm sure almost everyone here can tell and several other cartoons do, where a 22 minute time block involves two 11 minute episodes, not one large 22 minute one) and what takes up the other 11 or so minutes here?

Well, the other 11 minutes are a string of 2 or 3 segments in each show, which have altered each. Hosted by Shugo Chara Egg (Who has wrote a few of the theme/ending songs for the show, I'm quite certain), which is kind of... awkward. Not going to lie, this was my least favorite thing over all of this season, but it's most of a nitpick. Sometimes it felt a little uncomfortable, and I don't know if anyone who's seen this season has noticed this, but Amulet Clover seemed to be the most miserable of the three. God, she always felt so fucking fake all of them. I don't know, it's just something about her act rubbed me the wrong way, it felt like she didn't want to be there, but I can digress. It's a real nitpick, and I can get over the live action wrap around sections.

Now for the segments individually. I'll be getting to the actual content of the anime soon.

Shugo Chara Puchi Puchi- THIS. THIS. IS MY FUCKING FAVORITE THING ABOUT SHUGO CHARA PARTY. Short, almost 2 minute cartoons revolving around the misadventures of the Guardian Characters. It sounds amazing, and oh boy, these are fucking awesome. They have all the same comedy you saw with the Guardian Characters playing off each other in the first two seasons, and I ate these up. They're a lot of fun, well written, and delightfully weird. Can't praise these enough, so great. Also loved the animation style used in these.

Shugo Chara Encyclopedia- These were brief character introductions. I didn't really see much of a purpose of it, but I never minded these. They were just fine. Although I wish they did say some things about the characters never really said before, like extra interesting facts about them or something. But yeah, alright segment.

Shugo Chara Egg Battle (I think this is what this segment was called i'm pretty sure)- These were short games played by Shugo Chara Egg a la a game show, usually incorporating Shugo Chara trivia. I have to say, I do quite like these. They have a very weird japanese game show feel to them and are really fun, and I quite like them. Although one small nitpick, the trivia in this was way too fucking easy, but than again I paid so much attention to everything so that's probably on me.

Shugo Chara Nail Art and Shugo Chara Dance Tutorial (or whatever it was called)-

I'm sorry. I fucking hate Family Guy, but these were my honest to god reactions to these.

Tried watching these segments but I just did not care, I'm sorry. I love the soundtrack but I even didn't find the dancing interesting, same with the nail art (but then again I'm a 15 year old boy), so I skipped over these segments. And yes, I'm sure people cared, but yeah, didn't care for either of these. At least no one forced me to watch them, and I didn't hate them, just not my thing.

Shugo Chara Fortune Telling- The only segment to be after the 11 minute anime episode, these were just fortune telling. Nothing more, nothing less. It's one of those "choose 1 of 4, what you chose is your fortune" kinda things. I thought these were fine. I did it almost every time, and it was fun. So yeah, it was a good segment, just not amazing or too noteworthy.

 

On to the actual anime.

So a few note worthy things about this anime are the inclusion of a new character, Rikka Hiiragi, and also the previous Easter leader, Hikaru Ichinomiya, becoming very prevalent characters in this season. And what do I think of these two characters? I quite like them. I like how Rikka is very naive, but is learning, and Amu is helping her out, and she looks up to Amu. I find their chemistry really cute, and so was the chemistry of Hikaru and Rikka, where Hikaru is a lot of empty emotions but learns to laugh and get a major grip of normal human life, after being thrust into the position of Easter leader by his father. Overall, both were good characters and had a lot of great moments. As for other characters, they're all there but Nadeishko, but she left (well, kind of, considering Nagihiko and Nadeshiko are the same person). Nagihiko is there. Kukai made a few appearances if I remember correctly. Yaya is there, etc, they're all there. But Ikuto, he was in France, which is why a lot of 11 year old girls hate this season because the man who made them realize what love is is not here. Well, same rebuttal as earlier to this:

 

And that is for the 11 minute time, also. A lot of people had problems with that, really didn't mind it. I didn't think it innovated the show's plot structure or anything (although it definitely did change it a bit) but yeah, didn't mind the new time structure. If there was one criticism I had, I wish we saw more of Amu's family, but that's kind of a criticism for the show in general. I fucking love Amu's family. Her dad is hysterical, so is her little sister. And I was always so eager to see more chemistry between Amu and her mom. Her mom really seemed like a cool woman, i wish we saw her more. But I can digress on that too, i can on almost all my criticisms with this. It was a good season and while I understand a lot of the criticisms of this season because it was a bit different, I still enjoyed it. Anyway, this entry was probably just rambling, but I tried to put into words my thoughts on this season. Anyway, I'm out, and I'll be back to talk more about this anime!

CyanideFishbone

Well

Well. As of January 27th, 2017, I have finished all 127 episodes of Shugo Chara. Remember when I said that I would make another entry about this amazing fucking piece of animation with my journal entry "I Love Shugo Chara"? Well, here it is guys.

 

After watching all 127 episodes, I can safely say, without a doubt, that this is my favorite show ever. It helped me become a better person, it helped me become happier and realize that life is something beautiful, and we live once, so we must make the most out of it.

 

Let's start with a little background to right before I started watching this show, back in August of last year. When school got out in June, I was off the heels of a truly awful school year. During ninth grade, which was off the heels of the best school year of my life, I lost faith in me as a person, fell into self-loathing multiple times, and got pretty deeply depressed because I was bored of life, I felt like everyone left me behind, and I thought that high school was going to be the most boring and awful time of my life.

After I left ninth grade, I was happy I left that bad year behind me but yet I did not know what to do when I returned. Will everything be as shitty? Will life get better? Fortunately, the latter happened, but that's for later. I got through a pretty good summer, going to California to see my family as a part of vacation, and just having fun by myself. Most of my friends were on vacation, so I got a lot of free time, probably too much. Anyway, at a crossroad and confused about my future, on the faithful day that will be a day of happiness to me, August 19th, 2016, I started watching Shugo Chara.

Having watching bits and pieces of it before (I got past the first season in the fifth grade but got quickly preoccupied), I was quite happy to plunge into this show yet again. and I fell in love with it all over again. It became my routine to watch this show first thing from when I got home from school, and all the more I started to fall in love with it all. The reason this is my favorite show ever is because, other than the fact it's FUCKING AMAZING, well, I'll try to explain it; It has some of the best written, most gripping and interesting characters I've ever seen, and I love the concepts and the plot, and this show can be fucking hilarious, and it can also be really dramatic and epic. Anyway, upon watching it and entering the tenth grade and finding myself in a better environment and finding everything to be a lot better than ninth grade. While watching it, I became probably the happiest I've ever been, or at least in a long time. I know that I am me, that Ryan is Ryan, and no one can fucking change that how hard they can. I am a person and I should do what my heart tells me. This also taught me that life is something that happens once, so I have to make the most of it.

As I dealt with the average mishaps and hardships of a teenage boy, I hold this show close to my heart and it was always there for me through whatever. It's a show that combines everything I love about animation, and helped me love myself (not to an egotistical level) and made me realize that I am one of a kind, and no one can change who I am. I am so honored to say that this is my favorite show of all time as it opened me to one of the happiest times in my life, and combines almost everything I love in media, all though I've probably said that a hundred times now, I can't fucking put in words how much I love this show.

 

-Ryan

CyanideFishbone

This is a very improvised, probably not even that good, thing I felt I need to type out considering it's ending this Monday (tomorrow).

 

Regular Show is ending tomorrow. Regular Show played a vital part in my early teenage years, up until now, and without it I doubt i'd want to pursue art, animation, and writing as a career without it and a few other shows.

 

I remember I first watched Regular Show when I was nine at my cousin's house. Back then I was obsessed with video games of all sort, so I never thought much of it, I was pretty apathetic towards it. The first episode I saw was Ello Govnor, if anyone wants to know, and even that didn't leave an impression on me too highly. I was just apathetic towards it.

When I became 10, I fell in love with MLP as a lot of you know, and a few days later, Shugo Chara. These two cartoons ate up so much of my time in August and September 2011, and I even tuned into the premiere of the MLP Season 2 premiere. After that, I started flipping channels out of boredom the next couple days, until I came across the Stick Hockey premiere (which premiered on September 19th, 2011, while the MLP premiere premiered two days before) and after that I, nearly instantly, found myself liking it. Than I started watching Adventure Time. Than Gumball.

I used to watch the premieres of those three shows so much pretty much my entire fifth grade year. I watched the premieres every Monday, until after Gumball's first season I really stopped watching it and now I'm pretty apathetic towards it, I haven't seen that show in years and don't have much intent to. But yeah, it ate up so much time, even into sixth grade when life went to shit, Adventure Time,Regular Show, and even Spongebob were there for me along with MLP (I briefly watched some Shugo Chara episodes in there too, and I actually got a Regular Show calendar!), and yeah, I'd watch premieres every Monday. Around that time though I fell out of love for Adventure Time, but I still loved Regular Show so much.

During my seventh grade year I started to get really depressed, and started to doubt my own existence. Then, during that dark period in my time, I kind of, well, got preoccupied and stopped watching Regular Show, while I was obsessed with MLP during that entire time, which I pay the show massive amounts of respect for that. After a dark event that happened in April 2014 happened that I don't want to talk about (I've actually tried multiple times to write a long, really sad blog entry about just what happened back then but I couldn't do it), I got help for my depression and things got a bit better. After that, I found a love for music, but I didn't turn back to Regular Show just yet. I'm positive i watched some episodes in this time, it's just I really don't remember doing it a lot or watching premieres.

This all changed in the eighth grade. I felt I should go back to Regular Show, and just that i did, because then I was making ideas for cartoons. And I watched some episodes from the most recent season, and I fell back in love with it all and I consider it one of my favorite cartoons, and I stick by that. Still watching the new seasons, I can say I really do love this show. It sucks to see it's ending, but I'm glad it's ending strong.

 

-Ryan

CyanideFishbone

IMPORTANT, PLEASE READ: This list is of albums I LISTENED TO in 2016. Not albums from 2016, although there's a few of those on here. But this is a list of every album I listened to in 2016. 

 

EVERY ALBUM I LISTENED TO IN 2016

Legend: (Artist name- Album name) (Date listened to album) (Year of album)

 

LIST:

My Chemical Romance- Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge (1/3) (2004)

My Chemical Romance- The Black Parade (1/16) (2006)

Green Day- Insomniac (2/14) (1995)

Green Day- Warning (2/21) (2000)

The Used- The Used (3/3) (2002)

Descendents- ALL (3/5) (1987)

AFI- Answer That And Stay Fashionable (3/10) (1995)

Green Day- 21st Century Breakdown (3/13) (2009)

Green Day- Uno (3/20) (2012)

Suicidal Tendencies- Self-titled (3/25) (1983)

Descendents- Everything Sucks (3/28) (1996)

Blink-182- Take Your Pants Off And Jacket (3/29) (2001)

AFI- Sing The Sorrow (3/31) (2003)

Green Day- Dos (4/3) (2012)

Weezer- Pinkerton (4/6) (1996)

AFI- Decemberunderground (4/7) (2006)

Descendents- Cool To Be You (4/10) (2004)

Radiohead- The Bends (4/10) (1995)

Weezer- The White Album (4/11) (2016)

Deftones- Gore (4/22) (2016)

The Fall Of Troy- OK (4/23 I think) (2016)

Blink-182- Self-titled (4/28) (2003)

Alkaline Trio- Maybe I'll Catch Fire (5/5) (2000)

Green Day- Tre (5/8) (2012)

Death Grips- The Money Store (5/11) (2012)

AFI- Crash Love (5/19) (2009)

The Used- In Love And Death (5/26) (2004)

Rise Against- The Unraveling (6/2) (2001)

Blink-182- Neigborhoods (6/10) (2011)

Bad Religion- How Could Hell Be Any Worse? (6/11) (1982)

AFI- Very Proud Of Ya (6/18) (1996)

Touche Amore- ...To The Beat Of A Dead Horse (6/19 or 6/20, I forget) (2009)

Deep Wound- Deep Wound (6/24) (1983)

My Bloody Valentine- Loveless (6/25) (1991)

Red Hot Chili Peppers- The Getaway (6/29) (2016)

Alkaline Trio- From Here To Infirmary (6/30) (2001)

Blink-182- California (7/1) (2016)

AFI- Burials (7/5) (2013)

Slint- Spiderland (7/9) (1991)

Smashing Pumpkins- Siamese Dream (7/12) (1993)

Red Hot Chili Peppers- Blood Sugar Sex Magik (7/12) (1991)

Deftones- Diamond Eyes (7/12) (2010)

Alkaline Trio- Good Mourning (7/20) (2003)

Taking Back Sunday- Tell All Your Friends (7/24) (2002)

Pixies- Doolittle (Somewhere in here, I'm not certain the EXACT DATE or range of dates) (1989)

Brand New- Deja Entendu (8/1) (2003)

Descendents- Hypercaffium Spazzinate (8/6) (2016)

Sonic Youth- Goo (8/8) (1990)

Joy Division- Unknown Pleasures (8/11) (1979)

Yellowcard- Ocean Avenue (9/8) (2003)

Weezer- The Green Album (9/29) (2001)

American Football- Self-titled (10/6) (1999)

Green Day- Revolution Radio (10/7) (2016)

The Promise Ring- Nothing Feels Good (10/13) (1997)

Wavves- King Of The Beach (10/20) (2010)

Weezer- Everything Will Be Alright In The End (10/27) (2014)

Saves The Day- Through Being Cool (10/30) (1999)

Yeah Yeah Yeahs- Fever To Tell (11/10) (2003)

Smashing Pumpkins- Gish (11/17) (1991) 

Jimmy Eat World- Clarity (11/24) (1999)

Alkaline Trio- Crimson (12/1) (2005)

Yeah Yeah Yeahs- Show Your Bones (12/8) (2006)

Wavves- V (12/15) (2015)

The Mars Volta- De-Loused In The Comatorium (12/18) (2003)

Red Hot Chili Peppers- Stadium Arcadium (12/18) (2006)

 

Top 10/15 best list coming soon

CyanideFishbone

Idk how this came to me but I thought I'd make this so you all would better know me as a person, so I started with some things about me

 

-My first name is Ryan, I don't think I've ever said that, but yeah, my first name is Ryan.

-My greatest passions are art, animation, and music. I love video games as well.

-I actually have asperger's syndrome.

-I am 15. I share a birthday with Victoria Beckham and Maynard James Keenan (April 17th)

-My favorite television shows (including anime) are Shugo Chara (number one), The Simpsons, South Park, Bob's Burgers, Regular Show, Clannad and Clannad After Story, Soul Eater, Death Note, Panty and Stocking With Garterbelt, and a few others

-My favorite band is At The Drive In. Some of my other favorites include Green Day, Blink-182, AFI, Descendents, Weezer, My Chemical Romance, Red Hot Chili Peppers, and Nirvana

-My favorite animals are chinchillas, koalas, and cats.

-My favorite game series is Pokemon.

-I have an avid interest in Japanese culture. Someday, some day, I aspire visiting there, which I'm sure will happen since my sister who's 18 plans to go abroad there.

 

God I don't know anything else that's interesting

 

CyanideFishbone

A Thing Part 2

Kind of sounds like I said all JPop sucks.....

 

Which it doesn't. I was trying to combat that viewpoint.  Just needed to clear that up, the song I featured kicks so much ass it isn't even funny.

CyanideFishbone

Hey look another music entry.

 

But yeah here I am. Top 10 At The Drive In songs. This actually came to me last night when I decided I wanted to make a list of my top 10 favorite songs by my favorite band of all time. But yeah, here I am. Top 10 At The Drive In songs, here we go. I decided I might do this for some of my other favorite bands if people like this, so yeah. Another rule is I wanted one entry from every studio album. But let's get started with looking at some of the best from the El Paso post-hardcore giants!

 

10. Bradley Smith (Alfaro Vive, Carajo)

Some of you might not know what Alfaro Vive, Carajo is, but it's At The Drive-In's first EP. Yeah. So this song..... It's a great one. At the time, At The Drive In was much more of kind of an emo band than really post-hardcore, and yeah, this has a really... dark subject matter. It's basically something along the lines of someone trying to wake a dead person named Bradley, talking about how he "knows he's there". It's just a very dark song, but the instrumentals don't sound too dark which actually makes the song decently interesting. Anyways pretty good song, definitely my favorite off Alfaro Vive, Carajo. I also enjoy Plastic Memories, which is just kind of a creepy song, while I don't think this one is, just pretty dark.

9. Non-Zero Possibility (Relationship Of Command)

This song.... I can't find the meaning of it anywhere, and honestly, I really can't make out exactly what this song is about. I've heard people say it's about abortion, death, but I'm sticking with Genius (the lyric website, formally known as Rap Genius)'s definition of it being about Cedric (ATDI's lead singer) reflecting on the death of many of his friends that have died in the course of his career with ATDI, with another song about one specific person earlier in the band's career, which would become the central topic of  Cedric's next venture after ATDI split, The Mars Volta's first album, and in a way, it's kind of a precursor to that album in a way. Anyway, besides that, it's a quiet, melancholy song to end off one of the most important post-hardcore records of all time. I love the piano at the start. I love Cedric's almost tired-sounding voice. It's a melancholic song, and an effective one.

8. Shaking Hand Incision (In/Casino/Out)

In/Casino/Out is my least favorite ATDI album. It's not bad by any stretch of the word, but I definitely don't enjoy it as much as I do with the others. I definitely think it's ATDI's weirdest and noisiest album, and while I can be fine with both usually, I don't know, I just don't feel I enjoy it as much as I should. Maybe one of these days I'll revisit the album, which I probably will because I really want to strongly appreciate this album as I do with Relationship Of Command and Acrobatic Tenement (ATDI's first), so I hope that'll happen. But this album has some fantastic songs, and this isn't even my favorite, that'll come later. This is one of them. With this album, I feel like ATDI was transitioning to the sound on Relationship Of Command, and I feel like this song could fit right at home on that album. It's not SUPER fast, but it's decently fast and i love the drumming and the riff in the song along with the kind of violent lyrics. Also I love the way Cedric says "assualt" as random of a thing that may be.

7. Initiation (Acrobatic Tenement)

Hey look first Acrobatic Tenement entry. Anyways, this is another kind of chilling song with nice instrumentals and a kind of... relaxing atmosphere, but a dark as fuck meaning, well, I can't find a specific meaning, but both I've found are rather dark, one says the song is about a stalker and the other says it's about a car accident where people died on their way to a show. Either way I'm pretty certain the meaning of the song involves a concert of some sort. Anyways, a chilling song with some pretty interesting instrumentals as they seem to go for kind of a soothing vibe.

6. Quarantined (Relationship Of Command)

Second Relationship Of Command entry. This is another weird song with generally a relaxing atmosphere, but has these really complexed and kind of weird lyrics, entailing weapons and breaking out of prison and viruses. It's a weird song that I can't really put a meaning on, but it's super enjoyable. Also got to love the thunder sound effect right at the start of the song. Just another chilling song with weird, yet thought-provoking and interesting lyrics. Can't say much else.

5. Lopsided (In/Casino/Out)

Here we go into the amazing territory, starting with this cut from In/Casino/Out. Another song I can't seem to put why it's so enjoyable into words, but I'll try my best. Let's start with the surreal lyrics, as well as the noisy intro and outro. That outro is simply chilling as the song really winds down and it just has this really spine-chilling piano with all this weird talking in the background. It always sends a chill down my spine and makes me uneasy, but it's a good kind of uneasy. It's the kind I felt like after listening to Spiderland by Slint; kind of uneasy, yet pleased because music can make you feel that way, which shows how powerful music can be, but that's another topic for another time. Also it's worth noting it isn't the noisy chilling kind of sound ATDI usually goes for save for the outro actually. Fantastic song.

4. Invalid Letter Dept. (Relationship Of Command)

Before I discuss this song, I would like to take a moment to discuss the meaning of this song. This song is about the female homicides committed in Ciudad Juarez, Mexico, not too far from El Paso (where ATDI is from) where women who worked in maquiladoras which is a manufacturing operation where factories import certain material and assemble, process, and manufacture them and send them back to the owner or that country, and these girls were typically raped, murdered, or mutilated by others. The Mexican police typically did not respond to these cases, which a big part of the song is criticizing the authority for how shitty what they did is. Anyways, the lyrics have this really scientific feel to them which makes that interesting, and besides that, it's a really dark and depressing song, yet thought-provoking and interesting concerning the horrors of the homicides, and the outro is one of the best parts of the song where the guitars pretty much stop the whole thing it was doing in the song and Cedric's vocal delivery changes and he eventually starts screaming along with the guitars sounding more complexed than they usually do, and the song ends peacefully. A really dark and chilling song, that remains to be poignant and a reminder of the horrors that happened in Ciudad Juarez.

3. Paid Vacation Time (Acrobatic Tenement)

This song is overall just eerie, as well as just kind of... depressing. It starts with this quiet intro that's spine-curdling, especially at night alone. The song keeps that noisy and eerie vibe throughout the entire song with the lyrics detailing something about betrayal. I really can't say much more then it's an eerie and depressing song with great lyrics and equally eerie and depressing instrumentals that are able to make this song kind of.... eerie and chilling at times.

2. Ebroglio (Acrobatic Tenement)

As with Invalid Letter Dept., this is a song where first I would like to discuss the meaning of this song. This song is about the suicide of Cedric's friend Julio Venegas, who died about 6 months before Acrobatic Tenement came out by jumping into oncoming traffic, and a large portion of this song is Cedric reflecting on just what happened, and his feelings after such a horrible thing happened to him. Here I truly feel you can hear Cedric singing his heart out, especially with that super heart felt opening poem. There's a lot of personal stuff in the poem that I feel like just makes the song even more powerful, citing personal instances involving Julio such as "Getting drunk one night in the trunk of Louie P's car" and describing how important of a friend Julio was to him and excluding the opening poem there's a lot of talk about how important Julio was to Cedric and there's him talking about how "it's all a facade, but nothing really matters now." It's an extremely powerful song, definitely, in my opinion, ATDI's most emotionally powerful. And yes, I should bring up that Julio Venegas went on to be the central subject of The Mars Volta's first album, De-Loused In The Comatorium.

And here we go.

1. Arcarsenal (Relationship Of Command)

This was an easy number one.

In my opinion, it's because this song is the best example of ATDI's signature aggressive post-hardcore sound that got known on Relationship Of Command. This song is like a musical rollercoaster to me. First it starts with the intros of the maracas and the guitar riff, which to me resembles going up the rollercoaster before you drop, then everything just slows down for a few seconds, and then the guitars come at full force, which represents the drop to me, and Cedric just starts screaming. And oh boy, this gives me goosebumps every time. Maybe this connection is because the first time I listened to Relationship Of Command was on the way to an amusement park, but oh man this song gets my adrenaline pumping so hard and I remember the first time I listened to this I absolutely fell in love. Such a strong, powerful, adrenaline pumper that's easily ATDI's best. And there's the parts where the song slows down and then it goes straight back to Cedric screaming his lungs out. And the lyrics (the song is actually rumored to be about Jeffrey Dahmer) have this basically adventurous vibe concerning "seeing a thousand faces, and these voices won't give up" and "I must have robbed them of their cause". Just so fucking adrenaline pumping and kickass, it embodies everything ATDI stands for, and that's why it's my favorite ATDI song.

 

And yeah those are my choices. I felt like my explanations were kind of meh because I really do have a hard time saying why I enjoy these songs so much in words, but I try my best. And here's the songs if you want to listen to all of them:

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CyanideFishbone

I wanted to do something really simple and I decided on talking about why I love some of my favorite cartoons (including anime, which are obviously cartoons!)

 

Without further ado let's go.

 

The Simpsons- It's the fucking Simpsons. Need I say more? It's a cartoon that changed the entire landscape of television. I love seasons 2 to like 11? Something like that dearly. It's a comic genius. It's got great characters.  It could tell a really damn funny story but tell an extremely emotional one next. It was just an amazing show. There's a reason this changed the entire landscape of television. 

South Park- I can always count on South Park for some damn good satire. Simply put, this cartoon is just.... well, it's hysterical. It's genius. It's mindblowing to me South Park can still put out high quality stuff after 20 years and be made in a week and still tell stories that knock one out of the park. The characters are all hilarious. And even when South Park isn't doing satire, they can make great episodes. It's a great show that boggles my mind that it's still going so strong after 20 years. I have the upmost respect for Matt and Trey.

Bob's Burgers- i love how down to earth this show is. I also love how it doesn't constantly rely on shock value or vulgar jokes and makes it's style of humor very gag-driven and character-driven. I also love how it skews away from the family formula, with Bob not being another fucking moron dad. Another thing is this show has such as simple premise. Bob wants to run a restaurant, but his family's eccentricities and bad luck always get in the way. It's really that simple, and of course the family gets thrown into multiple misadventures. It's really a breath of fresh air from FOX. It's definitely worth a watch.

Regular Show- Regular Show is another breath of fresh air from Cartoon Network. Yes, it's formulaic, but yet the characters are still well done and I like this show's more character driven sense of humor. I also love the minimalist animation this show goes for paired up with all the weird shit that goes on in it. Yeah, it sucks it's ending, but at least it's ending while it's still good and i'm glad it's ending before it could run itself into the ground.

Rick and Morty- Original? Oh you fucking bet your ass this is. Nothing is like this. It's an adult cartoon, but it's very science-fiction based, and the ideas and concepts it comes with are insanely creative, like, holy shit. And besides that, you've got some pretty decent characters (Not the biggest fan of the chemistry between Beth and Jerry, but it can be okay sometimes). I never get tired of the chemistry between Rick and Morty (the characters, obviously)

Invader Zim- This show is so different from anything Nick has EVER made. And that's what makes it so enjoyable. It's dark, it's twisted, and it's hilarious. Anyone who likes offbeat humor should give it a shot. I never get tired of how fucking self-centered Zim is how he always fails to realize just how incompetent he is. It has an identity of it's own. I don't think anything like it has ever aired.

(MLP is REALLY important to me, but IDK if I'd call it one of my favorite shows ever)

Here's some of my favorite anime:

Shugo Chara- Oh yeah you all know this is my favorite cartoon of all time, easily. Boosted by an awesome concept and gripping and unique concepts, it always puts a smile on my face. It's simply amazing. 

Clannad and Clannad After Story- Yes, i'm including the main anime and after story in one spot fucking sue me. Anyway, Clannad doesn't even really feel like an anime to me. It feels more like a piece of art. It's an amazing, EXTREMELY touching story of a high school boy who's mother died when he was young and he was raised by his alcoholic father and even goes past high school into his life after high school in the after story. It's so fucking worth a watch. It's just, well, if you cry easily, prepare to cry a fucking river if you watch it.

Death Note- This show is extremely gripping. That's the best part of it. Yeah L and Light and such are all great characters, but the best part of Death Note to me is just how fucking GRIPPING it is. I couldn't wait to see what direction it went in.

Panty and Stocking with Garterbelt- Well.... this show... This FUCKING show... Is one of the most vile, disgusting things ever, and you know what, it's also one of the FUNNIEST things ever. The best comparison I can think of for it is it's the combination of early South Park-style gross out combined with anime. It's just, god... It's hilarious.... So many quotes from this one. "I don't give a shit, so I'm gonna take one!" "Where'd you come from?" "Yo momma's ass." It's just hilarious.

 

That's all I really got for now I guess. I may make some more 

 

 

CyanideFishbone

I Love Shugo Chara

Yay, here's my first non-music related blog post! Anyway......

 

If you were to ask me some of my favorite shows ever including anime, I'd probably say The Simpsons, South Park, Regular Show, Clannad and Clannad After Story, Death Note, MLP, Bob's Burgers, Panty and Stocking with Garterbelt, and then you'd ask me if I have a favorite. And then you'd ask me if I had a favorite out of those. And I'd tell you that my favorite isn't even in that! Then what is it?

 

Well...

 

What? What is this shit? It looks girly! It looks like every other anime for girls in the world. Some girl, there's pictures of some male characters, and what? With stuff like The Simpsons and South Park as some of your favorite shows ever, how could this be number 1?

 

Well, it is. Shugo Chara, hands down, is my favorite show ever. Honest, it is. I don't think a single piece of media ever affected my life as much as this has. And well, if you can't tell by my profile picture, well, I've been rewatching it (I've gotten decently far in like back in fifth grade and quit because I went on to other stuff, but I'm rewatching it now and remembering why I adore it)

 

Let's start with a little history, shall we?

Here's the plot if you're not aware (just a Wikipedia link): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shugo_Chara! 

When I was about..... let's say 8, I was at a used book store with my family, when my sister stumbles upon the first issue of the Shugo Chara manga. Actually, that EXACT issue isn't too far from me and is on a bookshelf from me! Anyway, my sister came obsessed with it, who was 10 at the time and going to fifth grade. The idea slightly intrigued me, so I tried to read the manga, and well, I didn't really understand it, but well, I liked it. I thought the idea of Guardian Characters was the coolest thing ever to me for the most part and that's what got me attracted.

 

While my sister got into other things, I left that all behind. I never even really watched the anime even and I didn't even really understand it because I was eight. Anyways, about a year later in fourth grade, I was having a tough time because around then was when I started to really get bullied for the first time. Anyways, I remembered Shugo Chara and realized I kind of liked a few of the characters and kind of started to like that idea again. Anyways, I forgot about it until like a couple days after watching MLP, which that was like mid-August 2011.

 

I remember I found one of the Shugo Chara mangas my sister owned and I remembered how cool of an idea I thought the show was. And then I started actually watching the anime, and I fell in LOVE. I long for the August 2011 afternoon like the week before fifth grade started where I would watch Shugo Chara. Anyways, fifth grade came around and well, I was obsessed even into school. And I was able to be proud of my love for Shugo Chara because no one knew what it was, except for me. I remember watching Amu and her guardian characters's adventures after school. I remember pretending to Character Transform even, I think a few times in front of my class honestly. And I also remember reading the manga in school. Oh god all those teacher-student reading conferences I had to on volumes of the manga make me cringe thinking about it. I also remember trying to actually finish the series in 7th and 8th grade but never got past like the first 10 episodes because I got preoccupied with other stuff. 

And well, here I am, 5 years later, finally finishing it because I'm more into anime than I ever was right now and to celebrate those five years. And I'm finding new things about it that I love, which I think is damn impressive. And I know I'll finish it this time, because I've pretty much set aside a time slot I watch it on weekends and school days that will work perfectly. And I'm not blinded by memories or anything, despite the fact the show was pretty much a gateway into, well, one of the fondest times in my life. It has pretty much everything that I love in a show. It's got some pretty good action, and just the right amount. It has an AWESOME and unique plot. The idea of Guardian Characters is so cool. Just thinking of how if they were real how they would help me on my worst days... But I digress. It has comedy, and some damn good stuff too. There are some jokes here that have me laughing out loud as a 15 year old boy. And drama? Spot on. The show does emotion fantastically. Just from the first season alone  (what i've seen and i'm fresh with, first 25 episodes) I can name instances of all 3 being done fantastically. 

Anyways, this is the last thing about MY experience being a strong fan, but at this point in time I've been doing okay, but this enough from that. but this is one of the things that REALLY does make me happy at this point in time, probably the thing that MOST makes me happy. 

The characters are awesome. I really want to know what happens with Amu, Yaya, Nadieshko, Kukai, Tadase, Ikuto, Utau, and of course the guardian characters. Amu is such a great protagonist. Of course she's built up to be a cynical and shy girl who everyone thinks is well, basically the coolest person in the entire world, but her overall character is well, decently sarcastic at times but always well-meaning, and her moments where she acts really sweet or gets sad and contemplates something really make Amu a great character.

 

Anyways i don't want to go super into detail. That's for another time.

CyanideFishbone

Music- 9/7/16

 

Another band that I have a huge admiration for from the 2000's, and probably band I've ever heard of that's from Salt Lake City, is The Used. This band is compared to My Chemical Romance a lot because of The Used's frontman Bert McCracken's former friendship with MCR frontman Gerard Way, but the way I see it, The Used is pretty different actually. Both have the emotional edge, but the thing about The Used is I thought their music was a lot heavier and angrier than their contemporaries. One of the best parts of The Used is the fact that Bert McCracken is a damn good frontman. The man has a great voice, and i feel like no one from that era could scream with as much emotion as him. Bert's emotional screams went perfectly with The Used's amazing musicianship. 

 

Anyway, In Love And Death is a great album. Although I do prefer The Used (their first record), In Love And Death isn't bad by any stretch of the word. Although I feel The Used is heavier and the musicianship is a little better, I feel In Love And Death definitely upped up the emotion from The Used. A big point in this record is the fact most of the songs in the record revolve around some of the well, extremely awful, things Bert McCracken went through at the time, such as his pregnant girlfriend dying and his dog being killed. 

 

Anyways, another thing this album is damn good at is adrenaline pumpers. Just listen to I'm A Fake, Listening, Sound Effects and Dramatics, and oh god, this song. This song is definitely the best of those. Despite the fact I've played the FUCK out of this song, it STILL gives me goosebumps. That opening sets so much in motion for the album, this being the first track. Other than that, the instrumentation is fantastic. And that fucking chorus. That fucking chorus. "BURN THE SUN, BURN THE LIGHT, TAKE TAKE TAKE TAKE IT AWAY!" and then the breakdown where the drums are the only part and McCracken starts screaming "TAKE MY HAND, TAKE MY LIFE!" and "BROTHERS AND SISTERS I'M RIGHT HERE CAUSE EVERYONE'S GOT ONE" that whole part always gets me pumped up. Another single from this album, All That I've Got, is like Bert wallowing in his own pain, when in this song, it feels like Bert is rising up to the atrocities around him, and telling him to try to take his life, but he'll always remain strong. It's a DAMN powerful song to start a powerful album. If you like this song, I recommend I'm A Fake from this album, the last track,which is like the sequel to it to me. 

CyanideFishbone

Music- 8/26/16

 

I would say I don't even like Good Charlotte, but that isn't true, because I've never really heard anything by them, but holy fuck, I love this song. I've been addicted to it for a day or two by now. The best part about it is it FEELS like it's an anthem. It's about how high school is a hell hole, how you don't want to do what everyone else does, how you don't want to be like everyone else, before the subject matters I just stated became pop punk cliches. It's just good early 2000's pop punk. It's not too whiny, it's angsty (but not obnoxiously, unlike a lot of bands of that era were obnoxiously angsty AND whiny *cough SIMPLE PLAN *cough*) and it has the two parts that usually make a good pop punk tune for me; it's got the nice pop instrumental work and it's catchy. Also, vocals usually turn me off for a lot of pop punk bands because they're usually annoyingly whiny and such, but the singer's voice is just fine. It's a catchy tune that's the right level of angst to make a good pop punk song, and it isn't overly whiny (or at least the singer's voice is) like most of their contemporaries are.

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Music- 8/2/16

 

Throwback to edgy and angsty 8th grade Cyanide.

 

Yes, Disturbed isn't good. I want to get that out of the way. Down With The Sickness is just... awful. However, in my opinion, there's nothing in particular to hate them for. They're just like every other band like them for the most part. When I was 13 I went through a small Disturbed phase. I was really angsty back then, so that whole nu metal movement of the late 90's and early 2000's fit in to that. I used to like a few of those bands (I still listen to stuff from KoRn's first album every now and then) Anyways, I listened to Ten Thousand Fists back then and really enjoyed it. And to be honest, it kind of.... holds up. It's a guilty pleasure for me. I won't admit I like it because I don't really, but it's fun to listen to every now and then for memory purposes. Tracks like this one, Deify, and I'm Alive, and the obvious Genesis cover (Land Of Confusion) hold up decently well. I can't believe that was TWO years ago. Back then, all I wanted to do was to spend a rainy day at the mall at a Hot Topic, dressed in a Smashing Pumpkins hoodie, black jeans, and Doc Martens. It was kind of.... the good days. If it WAS two years ago. I felt alive. Sure, I liked some questionable things (mainly this), but I really felt alive back then. Now I feel like i'm going nowhere. Eighth grade, if I were to be honest, the best time in my life. Ninth grade was shit, and next year (tenth grade) well, I'll see in 27 days from now. This summer went by way too fucking fast. 

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Band: My Chemical Romance

Album: The Black Parade

Release Date: October 23rd, 2006

Genre: Alternative rock, pop punk

 

.. And here we go with my first album review. Well, first on this blog. I wanted to start with this one since I've been listening to it a lot recently, and well, I feel like I've been finding new things to love on it.

 

Anyway, with some history. Most people probably know who My Chemical Romance is. American alt-rock band  from Jersey City. The band started with a raw post-hardcore sound on their first album released on Eyeball Records in 2002, I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love. Produced by Thursday frontman Geoff Rickley, The record didn't launch MCR into the mainstream yet, but the album gave MCR a underground following. Pioneered by singles such as "Honey, This Mirror Isn't Big Enough For The Two Of Us", "Vampires Will Never Hurt You", and my favorite, "Headfirst For Halos", the album already got MCR some fans, as most bands who aren't big yet or never ended up big's first album grants them some fans. Due to Eyeball Records shutting down in 2012, the album is very hard to find a physical copy of, but it's on YouTube. If you're a fan of post-hardcore, I really recommend you give it a try. I was close minded but when I decided to give MCR a chance, I really found I loved their music.

Two years later, the band released Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge. The band's major-label debut on Reprise Records takes the band's previous post-hardcore sound and makes it into this really vengeful, violent alt-rock/pop punk sound, with singles "Helena", "I'm Not Okay", and "The Ghost Of You" launched MCR into the mainstream. The record is almost as good as Bullets to me, all though Bullets is my favorite and I honestly like The Black Parade and Three Cheers the exact same. I don't think one is better than the other.

After the hit that was Three Cheers, people wondered where MCR would take their newfound violent alt-rock/pop sound. And they turned to a rock opera. At the time, Green Day relaunched itself back into the mainstream with American Idiot after a few albums that did not get the band the same fame from Dookie. Because of this, several critics saw a connection between the two records.

Anyway, since The Black Parade is a rock opera, what's the subject of it? The subject of the album revolves around a character named The Patient, who is in the hospital dying of cancer, and involving his reflections of their reflections of their life and the entrance to the afterlife. This subject matter really lets MCR carve out some extremely emotional songs on it, with Cancer, I Don't Love You, and especially Welcome To The Black Parade. Welcome To The Black Parade, a ballad centered around the death of The Patient, resulted in the song becoming MCR's only number 1 Modern Rock Hit and also was number 1 on the charts in the UK, and since has received critical acclaim from critics and has even been used at... hockey games twice, strangely enough.

I would like to talk about some of my favorites from the album:

 

1. Welcome To The Black Parade

-I tried to not put my praising of this song all in the paragraph above, but what else can i say? This song is amazing. Through and through. My favorite part is easily that opening. That opening with that piano creates this super sentimental sound accompanied by the lyrics describing a memorable moment of The Patient's youth, steaming from frontman Gerard Way's belief that death can appear in anybody's happiest memory. The instrumentals make the song as powerful as it is, although the lyrics still remain powerful.

 

2. Mama

-Probably the most powerful song on the entire album beside Welcome To The Black Parade, this song about a man coming home after the war to his mother and how he now thinks his entire life is a lie and how he should've been a better person and maybe even born already makes for a powerful subject matter, and MCR does their absolute best with it. Gerard has these really twisted vocal breakdowns in the song where he sounds like he's on the very edge of snapping and breaking down really makes the song powerful, along with the overall song ranging from loud to quiet.

 

3. Disenchanted

-This is just a really great, sad ballad type song. I really can't say much else. For praise, I praise the usual stuff with MCR. I praise Gerard's voice. I love Gerard Way's voice, especially when he drags out his R's. Anyways, this is just a really emotional ballad type song about I assume The Patient reflecting on how their life ended in general.

 

4. The End/Dead!

-The opening, while short, and leading into the next track, Dead!, provides a great start for The Patient's character about how everything is sad to them and how when they grow up, they want to be "nothing at all" (I admittedly first thought it was "nuclear war") and this softer start to their character help leads a lasting impact with it's overall depressing nature, while the song it leads into, Dead! is 30 seconds of rock as it leads into dead silence.

 

5. Cancer

-Of course this had to be on the list. This is probably the second biggest tearjerker on the album beside Welcome To The Black Parade. Just a really depressing song, accompanied by the piano for the whole song about how The Patient recognizes that they're going to die soon and how they'll have to put everything away soon and face the fact that they're going to die. Truly a powerful track.

 

Other notable tracks:

 

Teenagers- Another big single off this album, this is a song about Gerard's fear of the teenagers of the future. It's decently different from most of the other songs on the album as it has this real rock vibe to it and doesn't seem to focus around the topic of depression, death, or heartbreak, but still manages to be a really powerful song because of it. It provides a nice contrast to the album, and it's an awesome song from beginning to end. It's a song that rocks decently hard, and it's great because of that.

House Of Wolves- Easily the most rocking song on the album, this song is about... I don't even know what to be honest. There's mentioning of taking people to their graves and telling them they're an angel, but god, i can't even tell. If someone knows, fill me in. All I know is Gerard's vocals on this song are really awesome, same with the overall rock feel of the instrumentals. Awesome song, definitely the most rock you'll get on this album, but that's not bad with songs like this and Teenagers providing a nice contrast to the depressing feel of the rock opera.

Famous Last Words- Another big single that's the end of The Patient's arc. Tells how The Patient is not scared of death and despite the fact they're dead, they'll always live on. It's another hard rocker like House Of Wolves and Teenagers and is a great, hard ending to the album.

I Don't Love You- Another very emotional track on the album about heartbreak and a couple breaking up. The instrumentals provide great emotion for the track and manages to be another really powerful song for emotion on this album.

 

Overall, The Black Parade is a great album. I don't think it's as good of a rock opera as American Idiot, but it's damn close. Beginning to end, there isn't a single weak point on the album. It's a very strong rock opera about emotion, death, and depression, and does those jobs very well. The album is definitely not a disappointment. It's a great alternative rock opera from start to finish, can't say much else. It's a great album, start to finish.

 

Now I'll feel guilty if I don't leave this here.

 

Your memory will carry on.....

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Welcome!

Welcome to my blog! That's really all I have to say. I'm gonna post my first album review soon, which will be a review of My Chemical Romance's 2006 rock opera The Black Parade. Will come today or tomorrow.